As I am 2 months away from officially being in my 30's, I thought it would be time to start taking care of my body. For the past ten years I have been drinking too much, smoking too much, and eating too much crap. So today marks day 11 of no smoking, and also the day I stop eating fast good disgustingness. Until the taco bell I ate last night, I hadn't eaten from a drive thru in almost two weeks, so back to the drawing board!! Last year was all about making my brain and mind healthy, and this year is about making my body healthy.
Wish me luck!!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Oh Dear.
Well. Jeez. It has got to be years since I have posted.
Lets do a quick recap :
November 2009 - gave birth to 'Baby' otherwise known as Mya. Alex calls her baby. Which gives me an OFFICIAL excuse to say 'noone puts baby in the corner' - which I SECRETLY Love!!! :)
May 2010 - I graduated from Austin Peay State University with two degrees - A BA in Studio Art and a BA in Theatre. Which basically means I am qualified to do NOTHING. :)
Also in May - I left my husband of three and a half years due to reasons too complicated to explain on a public blog. So, pending the actual FILING of divorce, I am now a single mom of two very small children. EEEEEEK.
The kids and I moved into our own place in June and we have been making due since then.
and finally -
In two weeks the kids and I will move up to Indianapolis, where I have gotten my old job back and I will be still grooming dogs, but I will be much happier with more money to provide for my children.
Thats about it. In a nutshell. I will TRY my hardest to update more so that I can provide entertainment for all those out there! :)
-Amber
Lets do a quick recap :
November 2009 - gave birth to 'Baby' otherwise known as Mya. Alex calls her baby. Which gives me an OFFICIAL excuse to say 'noone puts baby in the corner' - which I SECRETLY Love!!! :)
May 2010 - I graduated from Austin Peay State University with two degrees - A BA in Studio Art and a BA in Theatre. Which basically means I am qualified to do NOTHING. :)
Also in May - I left my husband of three and a half years due to reasons too complicated to explain on a public blog. So, pending the actual FILING of divorce, I am now a single mom of two very small children. EEEEEEK.
The kids and I moved into our own place in June and we have been making due since then.
and finally -
In two weeks the kids and I will move up to Indianapolis, where I have gotten my old job back and I will be still grooming dogs, but I will be much happier with more money to provide for my children.
Thats about it. In a nutshell. I will TRY my hardest to update more so that I can provide entertainment for all those out there! :)
-Amber
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Here's why I suck....
So - I guess I need to do a three month update:
MARCH:
Spring break, and with it brought positive pregnancy tests and morning sickness beyond belief. I spent all week curled up in bed, trying to keep my insides in, and my outsides out. Back to school and work and being more tired then I think I have ever been in my whole life. (We'll see if this changes once the new baby is here). Back into theatre again - Assistant Stage Managed the Dance Concert. This involved failing asleep after eating too many jellybeans back stage. And trying to throw up quietly during performances.
APRIL:
Was suckered into Stage Managing the Student Directed One Acts. 12 shows, 12 directors, 23+/- actors. I'm screwed. THEN was suckered into running the light board as well. This was not as bad as I thought. Except for when I 'intentionally' sabotaged one of the shows. Just Kidding. Although, that's not what the director thought. Ended up missing a weekend in Indy, Dave Matthews and losing my best friend in the process. Sucks to be a theatre major. What did I get from all my hard work? An art scholarship and a theatre scholarship, and maybe I'll be able to graduate next may. Finals came and went. Two A's, a B and a C. Not too bad for not learning anything.
MAY: Getting ready for Drew to go to Iraq. Mother's day vacation in Gatlinburg turned into our other house getting robbed, but thankfully no one was hurt. Fast forward to the 19th and I'm 16 weeks pregnant, my son says monkey and my husband goes to war in 2 weeks.
Sorry for the lack of updates.
-Amber-
MARCH:
Spring break, and with it brought positive pregnancy tests and morning sickness beyond belief. I spent all week curled up in bed, trying to keep my insides in, and my outsides out. Back to school and work and being more tired then I think I have ever been in my whole life. (We'll see if this changes once the new baby is here). Back into theatre again - Assistant Stage Managed the Dance Concert. This involved failing asleep after eating too many jellybeans back stage. And trying to throw up quietly during performances.
APRIL:
Was suckered into Stage Managing the Student Directed One Acts. 12 shows, 12 directors, 23+/- actors. I'm screwed. THEN was suckered into running the light board as well. This was not as bad as I thought. Except for when I 'intentionally' sabotaged one of the shows. Just Kidding. Although, that's not what the director thought. Ended up missing a weekend in Indy, Dave Matthews and losing my best friend in the process. Sucks to be a theatre major. What did I get from all my hard work? An art scholarship and a theatre scholarship, and maybe I'll be able to graduate next may. Finals came and went. Two A's, a B and a C. Not too bad for not learning anything.
MAY: Getting ready for Drew to go to Iraq. Mother's day vacation in Gatlinburg turned into our other house getting robbed, but thankfully no one was hurt. Fast forward to the 19th and I'm 16 weeks pregnant, my son says monkey and my husband goes to war in 2 weeks.
Sorry for the lack of updates.
-Amber-
Thursday, February 12, 2009
FINALLY!!
"Mother and Son" - FInished FINALLY!!!! I've just gotten around to photographing most of my stuff - right in time for scholarship applications next week!!! So, I've posted some on here, but if you really want to see it - go to my flickr.com page!!
Love you all!
Love you all!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
New President, and other great things in life.
Well, unless you have been living in an igloo in Alaska for the past couple of weeks you know that we FINALLY have a new president. For those of you that know me, you know that I was pretty excited about the outcome of the election, and I watched the Inauguration pretty closely. I am very excited about what Barack Obama personally means to me, as an army dependent, a student, and a mother. His face on the screen gives me hope, and the fact that he has already succeeded in fulfilling things he talked about during the campaign makes me very secure that I voted for the right guy. But, I am not the kind of person that only sees hearts and rainbows, so I am still doubtful that he will do half of the things he has promised. Right now, my main concern is what is he doing about Iraq and Afghanistan. I have friends in both of these places, and my husband can go to either one at any time, so I want to know: Is he really going to pull through and get those men and women out? I pray he does. Congratulations Barack Obama.
On a personal note: I started back at school this past week. There was some question about whether or not I was going to go back to Austin Peay, but I decided it would be a waste not to. I'm only taking three classes: Spanish 2, American History 2 and Business of Theatre, but hopefully this means I will be able to spend some more time with Alex and Drew, and not be so stressed out. So far all three classes have been challenging, but not to bad. Let's hope they stay this way.
Dave Matthews is coming to Vanderbilt!!! This has been the most exciting news I have found out this weekend. We, of course, are going, along with the Kerskis. James and I joked that him and I were going to be singing along, and dancing and Drew and jess will get bored and go to one of the Vanderbilt bars and find some hot doctors to leave us for. That's cool with me, I'll go chill with the Band after!!
Let's see, what else. I've been working on some art, a shadow box from one of my prints out of my printmaking class, I've finally started painting the plaster cast of me 37 weeks pregnant (with my 17 month old :) ), and I got some porceline from Ken that I'm going to start to throw. Oh, I'm also working on a drawing of Jess and James for Jessica's birthday next month. It's from a picture that was taken at MY wedding, but it's of the two of them and it's gorgeous, so I decided to do a giant drawing of it. As soon as it's done I will take a picture and post, as well as the stuff I worked on this semester, so that all you cyber people can see my stuff!!
Well, have a lovely week people, hopefully I will see you next!!!
On a personal note: I started back at school this past week. There was some question about whether or not I was going to go back to Austin Peay, but I decided it would be a waste not to. I'm only taking three classes: Spanish 2, American History 2 and Business of Theatre, but hopefully this means I will be able to spend some more time with Alex and Drew, and not be so stressed out. So far all three classes have been challenging, but not to bad. Let's hope they stay this way.
Dave Matthews is coming to Vanderbilt!!! This has been the most exciting news I have found out this weekend. We, of course, are going, along with the Kerskis. James and I joked that him and I were going to be singing along, and dancing and Drew and jess will get bored and go to one of the Vanderbilt bars and find some hot doctors to leave us for. That's cool with me, I'll go chill with the Band after!!
Let's see, what else. I've been working on some art, a shadow box from one of my prints out of my printmaking class, I've finally started painting the plaster cast of me 37 weeks pregnant (with my 17 month old :) ), and I got some porceline from Ken that I'm going to start to throw. Oh, I'm also working on a drawing of Jess and James for Jessica's birthday next month. It's from a picture that was taken at MY wedding, but it's of the two of them and it's gorgeous, so I decided to do a giant drawing of it. As soon as it's done I will take a picture and post, as well as the stuff I worked on this semester, so that all you cyber people can see my stuff!!
Well, have a lovely week people, hopefully I will see you next!!!
Monday, January 5, 2009
Aunt Kaky and Alex.
This picture is priceless. Alex still won't tell me what the joke was that they were laughing at, only that it had to do with monkeys jumping on a bed.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Alex's first car.....
I didn't get a car until I was 21, but I guess we have to give him a break, he is growing up in the Double Zero's.......
Thursday, January 1, 2009
New Years.
I hope everyone had a fabulous New Years and that everyone was safe. We had a small gathering at our house, which included Heather and Ben coming in from Indiana and Michelle and her son, Cody, coming up from Georgia. Heather and Michelle headed to bed shortly after 12 and Jessica and I passed out about 1 in my bed, to be woken up around 1.30 by Drew and James, then Drew and Jessica switched spots and the Kerski's went home.
We had fun and much Champagne was drank by all.
Today I have been doing some reflecting, and although I have changed a lot about myself in the past year, there are still a bunch of things I need to work on, including the way I treat some people. This is my New Years Resolution.
As far as Drew and Alex's.... who knows. I made up Alex's and that was for him to learn how to speak! Haha. I know I will be dreading this decision shortly, but for right now, I can't wait for him to speak and to start telling me great and fabulous things and for me to understand them. Right now he tells me great and fabulous things, but it comes out in Swahili, and unfortunately I don't have a translator.
So, I leave you with a picture from when Drew's parents were here for an early Christmas. Three Hosford generations.
So long, and be safe.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
New Mexico and BEYOND!
Well, we psuedo-Tennessean's made it to New Mexico and back in one piece. Although Alex did almost loose his shoe on the people mover at the Denver elevator. Thankfully, we got the shoe back, but not the leg... we are currently in litigation with a man who claims it's his, but obviously it's ours.
YES! we had fun.
YES! drew got to go to a freakin casino.
YES! Only one of us got sick (drew's karma for going to the casino).
YES! Alex was a bear on the way home, but
YES! He slept for 11 hours! (I haven't slept through this side of 8 am in a year and a half).
Not only did we see my fabulous Aunt and Grandmother, we also got to see my brother who I didn't think was going to be in town till the 2nd. But, ALAS! We got to hang out and go to lunch.
Having lived in the Mid-West off and on for about 10 years now, going back to the SOUTH-West is always an adventure. It's like a completely different world out there. Not just because of all the stray she-buddies running around, but also the architecture, landscape and the people are just amazing. The older I get and the more I go out there I begin to want to move there. It would also be nice to be closer to my family, especially as Alex is getting older. But, Drew wants to move back to Indianapolis, which is also fine, I just hope he realizes the cost of plane tickets as our family expands!!
I went to New Mexico 3 times this years.... that's a RECORD for me! I figured I had to make up for the past 7 years that I have hardly gone there at all.
Christmas was fun, Alex was finally old enough to realize, kinda, what was going on. We had fun in the Snow in Gallup as well. On Christmas Eve I did my grand-daughter duties and took my grandmother to evening Mass, which brought back memories of going when I was little with both grandparents and made me sad. But it was just great.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
What's with today, today?
I've been in such a crazy mood all day. And, on top of that, I've had a horrible headache. At first I thought it was a hangover cuz I had me some beerz last night, but It's been all day. I think I should probably start actually WEARING the glasses I have sitting on my dresser. Ha!
Well, I'm trying to get Christmas ready, which is a feat!!! Drew's parents will be here in 10 days and we are having that Christmas early, so it's been crazy shopping time, and wrapping and craziness. I'm sending all of MY families stuff back to NM for the Christmas we will have there, but half of it is still in the Kiln at school, or in the process of being FIRED that I haven't gotten it all boxed up yet. Bleh.
I've decided to take time off of school. Drew gets out of the army in 16 months and I will be able to go to school without taking loans, so we are going to wait until then for me to go back. It's good and bad. I'm still working at Petsmart but we've been so slow!!! And I haven't worked in two weeks because of Finals and whatnot.
Alex is up and walking, being CRAZY. I can't beleive how fast he has grown, just yesterday he was sleeping in between drew and I in bed. It's making want to have another baby. I don't know how people can't want ONE more after they see how much fun the first one is. Yeah, it's really stressful sometimes, and sometimes I loose my cool, but jeez, alex is just so much FUN. CAPITAL F U N.
HAHA.
Maybe next year ;).
Well, I'm trying to get Christmas ready, which is a feat!!! Drew's parents will be here in 10 days and we are having that Christmas early, so it's been crazy shopping time, and wrapping and craziness. I'm sending all of MY families stuff back to NM for the Christmas we will have there, but half of it is still in the Kiln at school, or in the process of being FIRED that I haven't gotten it all boxed up yet. Bleh.
I've decided to take time off of school. Drew gets out of the army in 16 months and I will be able to go to school without taking loans, so we are going to wait until then for me to go back. It's good and bad. I'm still working at Petsmart but we've been so slow!!! And I haven't worked in two weeks because of Finals and whatnot.
Alex is up and walking, being CRAZY. I can't beleive how fast he has grown, just yesterday he was sleeping in between drew and I in bed. It's making want to have another baby. I don't know how people can't want ONE more after they see how much fun the first one is. Yeah, it's really stressful sometimes, and sometimes I loose my cool, but jeez, alex is just so much FUN. CAPITAL F U N.
HAHA.
Maybe next year ;).
Monday, October 6, 2008
I feel so weird.....
So, my bipolar is having World War 67 in my body, and I don't like it. For example - right now, I'm really excited because I got three new Ceramic books, I started a sculpture of my leg that we don't have to even begin till thursday, I finished the one of my arm that we are supposed to finish tomorrow in class, my friend Britany and I are going to talk to our professor about building a Soda Kiln at school, I found five glazes in my new glaze book that I want to try out..... in other words, I'm starting to DO STUFF.....but, on the other hand - my body is freaking out - pissed off this morning for no reason, pushing people away from me that are my friends, getting mad at alex for something stupid that he can't help, mad at my husband...... just stupid shit. I don't want to be angry, or seclusive, or pissed off.... I just am.
I hope some body understands, cause I surely don't.
I'm tired of investing myself so much into so many people that either a) don't give a damn, or b) don't feel like they need to invest their time in me. I shouldn't have to be pathetic and beg people to hang out with me, including my own husband, but sometimes I feel like I do. But then, on the flip-side, I'm coming to realize that I'm everywhere, all the time. I never slow down. I work hard, play hard and sleep hard. But, I like that. I never really have time to think anymore - which I like. In these modern times they (who's they??) make it really difficult for anyone to be absolutly, completely, alone. I'm not saying that I'm afraid to be alone - because I love hanging out with just me and alex, or being by myself in the house, just doing my own thing.... but it's when I'm out - when I'm driving, when I'm throwing, when I'm grooming, when I'm lost inside myself, and inside my thoughts and ideas and craziness, that scares me.
My teacher asked me the other day if I have A.D.D. Maybe I do..... I'm always running from one thing to the next, it's hard for me to just sit still when there is so much stuff to DO. Wake up, get dressed, get alex up, feed alex, pack up car, go to school, make clay, make glazes, read, do research, go to class, eat lunch, run upstairs, make copies, hang posters, do this, do that.....
I love being busy, it's the sadness I feel inside myself that I don't love.
I miss Ryan and Jill. They made me calm down and sit and relax and watch a movie without doing five things at once, and just be.
I miss Heather and two years ago. When I was living in the RV and just being me. Now, don't get me wrong, I am happy and I am so glad for the past two years of my life - but it was nice, then, to be alone. After Myles broke off our wedding and I was just ....me..... for 5 months. It was nice. I didn't have to divide myself up between so many things that I can't keep track of..... I didn't feel like people and things and projects were just chipping away at me, piece by piece.
I look in the mirror now and I see wrinkles, and lines on my face that I don't remember getting, and I see my mother. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing - but I just don't want it to go so fast that I start forgetting things. I forgot the death-a-versary of Ryan. Which made me sad. I'm forgetting so much that happened to me - my old counselor was right - I did need to write things down so I would remember..... and now all those times my therapist told me to have a diary really means something. I never wrote in a diary - ever. And now I'm missing everything. My ex-boyfriend's dad had a journal he wrote in everyday. I once asked him why, and what he wrote, and he said "I just don't want to forget what I did on this day ever" and I said, "All we did was go to church have lunch and then hang out all afternoon and then had dinner" and he said "exactly".
All I did today was go to school and then to work and then came home and worked on a project.
Exactly.....
I hope some body understands, cause I surely don't.
I'm tired of investing myself so much into so many people that either a) don't give a damn, or b) don't feel like they need to invest their time in me. I shouldn't have to be pathetic and beg people to hang out with me, including my own husband, but sometimes I feel like I do. But then, on the flip-side, I'm coming to realize that I'm everywhere, all the time. I never slow down. I work hard, play hard and sleep hard. But, I like that. I never really have time to think anymore - which I like. In these modern times they (who's they??) make it really difficult for anyone to be absolutly, completely, alone. I'm not saying that I'm afraid to be alone - because I love hanging out with just me and alex, or being by myself in the house, just doing my own thing.... but it's when I'm out - when I'm driving, when I'm throwing, when I'm grooming, when I'm lost inside myself, and inside my thoughts and ideas and craziness, that scares me.
My teacher asked me the other day if I have A.D.D. Maybe I do..... I'm always running from one thing to the next, it's hard for me to just sit still when there is so much stuff to DO. Wake up, get dressed, get alex up, feed alex, pack up car, go to school, make clay, make glazes, read, do research, go to class, eat lunch, run upstairs, make copies, hang posters, do this, do that.....
I love being busy, it's the sadness I feel inside myself that I don't love.
I miss Ryan and Jill. They made me calm down and sit and relax and watch a movie without doing five things at once, and just be.
I miss Heather and two years ago. When I was living in the RV and just being me. Now, don't get me wrong, I am happy and I am so glad for the past two years of my life - but it was nice, then, to be alone. After Myles broke off our wedding and I was just ....me..... for 5 months. It was nice. I didn't have to divide myself up between so many things that I can't keep track of..... I didn't feel like people and things and projects were just chipping away at me, piece by piece.
I look in the mirror now and I see wrinkles, and lines on my face that I don't remember getting, and I see my mother. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing - but I just don't want it to go so fast that I start forgetting things. I forgot the death-a-versary of Ryan. Which made me sad. I'm forgetting so much that happened to me - my old counselor was right - I did need to write things down so I would remember..... and now all those times my therapist told me to have a diary really means something. I never wrote in a diary - ever. And now I'm missing everything. My ex-boyfriend's dad had a journal he wrote in everyday. I once asked him why, and what he wrote, and he said "I just don't want to forget what I did on this day ever" and I said, "All we did was go to church have lunch and then hang out all afternoon and then had dinner" and he said "exactly".
All I did today was go to school and then to work and then came home and worked on a project.
Exactly.....
Sunday, September 14, 2008
A glimpse into my day.... for all of you that don't know..!
So, tomorow is monday, the weekends have been going by way too fast lately. But I think that's because I've started to dread mondays. This past week has been one hell of a week however, so I am kind of excited to start a NEW one. Drew was injured.... something involving boiling water spilling on him and he spent Monday and Tuesday at the doctors. Then I got the flu wednesday and spent all wednesday afternoon in bed. Friday that turned into a sinus infection and then saturday the fluid drained into my ear, and now I have a massive ear infection. Not too mention friday was spent at the ER with alex because he was sent home from Darcare and, of course, I couldn't get a doctors appointment.
Ok, so anyways -
Tomorrow I have a critique in ceramics at 8, a quiz in spanish at 10.10 and then I get a little breather from 11 till 1.20. Then I have Art History till 2.30. THEN I go straight to work till 9. EGH. It makes me tired just thinking about it.
BUT. On another note -
Alex is JUUUUST about walking. He can take one or two steps then falls or leans on something. He has gotten lazy, however. We will call him and he will try to reach for our hand, if that's too far away then he plops right onto the floor and crawls.
What a brat!!
He's started getting a little attitude too! He will have a HISSY fit if he doesn't get what he wants, which he can't ever have because it's always things like a glass, or drews laptop, or the remote control...
The winds from the hurricane hit us this morning.... we didn't have phone, internet or cable all day. A whole bunch of people still don't have power, I guess. My friend melissa went outside to find a telephone pole half-way leaning over her front yard. Hopefully everyone is keeping safe.
Well, I am beginning to watch the tv more then write on here, so I will sign off for now.
ps - you should all watch the new series Fringe. It's amazing!
Ok, so anyways -
Tomorrow I have a critique in ceramics at 8, a quiz in spanish at 10.10 and then I get a little breather from 11 till 1.20. Then I have Art History till 2.30. THEN I go straight to work till 9. EGH. It makes me tired just thinking about it.
BUT. On another note -
Alex is JUUUUST about walking. He can take one or two steps then falls or leans on something. He has gotten lazy, however. We will call him and he will try to reach for our hand, if that's too far away then he plops right onto the floor and crawls.
What a brat!!
He's started getting a little attitude too! He will have a HISSY fit if he doesn't get what he wants, which he can't ever have because it's always things like a glass, or drews laptop, or the remote control...
The winds from the hurricane hit us this morning.... we didn't have phone, internet or cable all day. A whole bunch of people still don't have power, I guess. My friend melissa went outside to find a telephone pole half-way leaning over her front yard. Hopefully everyone is keeping safe.
Well, I am beginning to watch the tv more then write on here, so I will sign off for now.
ps - you should all watch the new series Fringe. It's amazing!
Sunday, August 31, 2008
I was going to wait till Veterans Day... but.....
My husband has been my husband for 2 years. (Almost). I have known my husband for 9 years. He was my friend for 7 years before we got married. He has a Mechanical Engineering Technology Degree from Purdue and he really likes to play beer pong. He is addicted to computers. He likes the history channel and the military channel. He can push all my buttons at once and it makes me laugh even though I am so mad at him i could cry. He cried with joy when when HE read the "You're Pregnant" on the pregnancy test. He painted my sons bedroom when he had a little too much to drink. He puts up with my bipolar. He puts up with my spending habits. He puts up with me.
He overcame diversity when he was three months old and was adopted by his parents. he knows he's asian. He knows he's awesome.
My husband went to basic training a week after he graduated from Purdue. Not by force, by CHOICE. He didn't do ROTC, his college was paid for. He didn't HAVE to join. He did it because he thought... No, he KNEW it was his duty.
My husband is a soldier in the US Army.
My husband is my hero.
My husband makes me proud every morning at 4.55 am when he wakes up and get's ready for Physical Training. He makes me proud at 8.50 am when he's showered and changed and ready to go in his army uniform. He makes me proud when he comes home at 5.35pm and takes a shower and puts his pajamas on. He makes me proud when he has to work over nights, when he works late, when he's on training, when he's at school......
My Husband Makes Me Proud.
In a month we will celebrate Veterans day. The day we honor those who serve our country so that I can go to college. So that I can study art. So that my son can have a decent chance to do something good. So that I can vote for Barack Obama. So that I can sit here on a sunday night slightly buzzed from beer. So that my friend Sara can teach Japanese in Japan. So that my friend Lindsey can be happily married to her wife. So that us Americans can be FREE.
I know that I sometimes pretend that I am Australian. Sometimes I hate this country (when I remember columbine, and when I think about our healthcare system).... when I realize I will not make money as an artist, or an art teacher.......
but that does not mean I am not proud of my husband and all of our friends that serve our country so selflessly. Who still like to come home and play beer pong after working on helicopters all day.
For the past couple of weeks I have been listening to this song by Toby Keith. 'American Soldier'. I remember this song and others like it after 9/11. But it hasn't been until this year that I really felt it.
I know I am counting down until June 10th, 2010. But, I'm counting down for my husband to be 100% safe. Not for him to get out of serving his country.
So - I will leave you with the lyrics to 'American Soldier'.
And to all you Veterans.
From the Bottom of my heart.
Thankyou.
And drew -
I love you.
I'm just trying to be a father
Raise a daughter and a son
Be a lover to their mother
Everything to everyone
Up and at 'em, bright and early
I'm all business in my suit
Yeah, I'm dressed for success
From my head down to my boots
I don't do it for money, there's still bills that I can't pay
I don't do it for the glory, I just do it anyway
Providing for our future's my responsibility
Yeah, I'm real good under pressure, being all that I can be
And I can't call in sick on Mondays
When the weekend's been too strong
I just work straight through the holidays
And sometimes all night long
You can bet that I stand ready
When the wolf growls at the door
Hey, I'm solid, hey I'm steady
Hey, I'm true down to the core
And I will always do my duty, no matter what the price
I've counted up the cost, I know the sacrifice
Oh, and I don't want to die for you
But if dyin's asked of me
I'll bear that cross with an honor
Cause freedom don't come free
I'm an american soldier, an american
Beside my brothers and my sisters
I will proudly take a stand
When liberty's in jeopardy, I will always do what's right
I'm out here on the frontlines, sleep in peace tonight
American soldier, I'm an American soldier
Yeah, an American soldier, an American
Beside my brothers and my sisters
I will proudly take a stand
When liberty's in jeopardy, I will always do what's right
I'm out here on the frontlines, so sleep in peace tonight
American soldier, I'm an American
An American
An American soldier
He overcame diversity when he was three months old and was adopted by his parents. he knows he's asian. He knows he's awesome.
My husband went to basic training a week after he graduated from Purdue. Not by force, by CHOICE. He didn't do ROTC, his college was paid for. He didn't HAVE to join. He did it because he thought... No, he KNEW it was his duty.
My husband is a soldier in the US Army.
My husband is my hero.
My husband makes me proud every morning at 4.55 am when he wakes up and get's ready for Physical Training. He makes me proud at 8.50 am when he's showered and changed and ready to go in his army uniform. He makes me proud when he comes home at 5.35pm and takes a shower and puts his pajamas on. He makes me proud when he has to work over nights, when he works late, when he's on training, when he's at school......
My Husband Makes Me Proud.
In a month we will celebrate Veterans day. The day we honor those who serve our country so that I can go to college. So that I can study art. So that my son can have a decent chance to do something good. So that I can vote for Barack Obama. So that I can sit here on a sunday night slightly buzzed from beer. So that my friend Sara can teach Japanese in Japan. So that my friend Lindsey can be happily married to her wife. So that us Americans can be FREE.
I know that I sometimes pretend that I am Australian. Sometimes I hate this country (when I remember columbine, and when I think about our healthcare system).... when I realize I will not make money as an artist, or an art teacher.......
but that does not mean I am not proud of my husband and all of our friends that serve our country so selflessly. Who still like to come home and play beer pong after working on helicopters all day.
For the past couple of weeks I have been listening to this song by Toby Keith. 'American Soldier'. I remember this song and others like it after 9/11. But it hasn't been until this year that I really felt it.
I know I am counting down until June 10th, 2010. But, I'm counting down for my husband to be 100% safe. Not for him to get out of serving his country.
So - I will leave you with the lyrics to 'American Soldier'.
And to all you Veterans.
From the Bottom of my heart.
Thankyou.
And drew -
I love you.
I'm just trying to be a father
Raise a daughter and a son
Be a lover to their mother
Everything to everyone
Up and at 'em, bright and early
I'm all business in my suit
Yeah, I'm dressed for success
From my head down to my boots
I don't do it for money, there's still bills that I can't pay
I don't do it for the glory, I just do it anyway
Providing for our future's my responsibility
Yeah, I'm real good under pressure, being all that I can be
And I can't call in sick on Mondays
When the weekend's been too strong
I just work straight through the holidays
And sometimes all night long
You can bet that I stand ready
When the wolf growls at the door
Hey, I'm solid, hey I'm steady
Hey, I'm true down to the core
And I will always do my duty, no matter what the price
I've counted up the cost, I know the sacrifice
Oh, and I don't want to die for you
But if dyin's asked of me
I'll bear that cross with an honor
Cause freedom don't come free
I'm an american soldier, an american
Beside my brothers and my sisters
I will proudly take a stand
When liberty's in jeopardy, I will always do what's right
I'm out here on the frontlines, sleep in peace tonight
American soldier, I'm an American soldier
Yeah, an American soldier, an American
Beside my brothers and my sisters
I will proudly take a stand
When liberty's in jeopardy, I will always do what's right
I'm out here on the frontlines, so sleep in peace tonight
American soldier, I'm an American
An American
An American soldier
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Everyone else is doing it.....
What were you doing ten years ago?
1998 - Hmmmm..... I was living in Australia, getting ready to move back to America. My dad and Roxanna were in the middle of a nasty break up and I was living with friends of my Dads.
What are five (Non-work) things on my to-do list for today?
1. Help Sara decorate for her husbands(Travis) surprise birthday party at my house.
2. Clean my house for the party.
3. Take care of Alex (of Course!).
4. Do the Laundry.
5. Make Travis's 'pimp' cup for tonight!
Five snacks I enjoy!
1. Chips Ahoy Chocolate Chip Cookies
2. Red Bull
3. Chips and Dip or Salsa
4. fruit
5. cereal
Things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. Pay off my student loans, and heathers, and my brothers.
2. Buy a house for my father, and one for my mom and one for Doug, my way-ward brother.
3. Take Drew, Alex, and a bunch of friends on a cruise or to vegas, or somewhere fun.
4. Buy a house for Drew, Alex and I in indianapolis.
5. Donate to Muscular Dystrophy.
Places I have lived
Singleton, Australia
Snells Beach, New Zealand
Okinawa, Japan
Indianapolis, Indiana
Banning, California
5 Jobs I have had
1. Server for Special Occasions in Australia at the Bowls Club.
2. Hairdressers Assistant at the Looking Glass in Australia
3. Dog Groomer
4. Carpenter for Ball State Theatre department.
5. Runner/Pee-on for Emens Auditorium in Muncie, Indiana
5 Things I want to do before I die
1. Take my whole family and rent a house on the Outer Banks for vacation
2. Go to Europe
3. Have two more children
4. Get my degree and masters degree
5. Move back to australia.
1998 - Hmmmm..... I was living in Australia, getting ready to move back to America. My dad and Roxanna were in the middle of a nasty break up and I was living with friends of my Dads.
What are five (Non-work) things on my to-do list for today?
1. Help Sara decorate for her husbands(Travis) surprise birthday party at my house.
2. Clean my house for the party.
3. Take care of Alex (of Course!).
4. Do the Laundry.
5. Make Travis's 'pimp' cup for tonight!
Five snacks I enjoy!
1. Chips Ahoy Chocolate Chip Cookies
2. Red Bull
3. Chips and Dip or Salsa
4. fruit
5. cereal
Things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. Pay off my student loans, and heathers, and my brothers.
2. Buy a house for my father, and one for my mom and one for Doug, my way-ward brother.
3. Take Drew, Alex, and a bunch of friends on a cruise or to vegas, or somewhere fun.
4. Buy a house for Drew, Alex and I in indianapolis.
5. Donate to Muscular Dystrophy.
Places I have lived
Singleton, Australia
Snells Beach, New Zealand
Okinawa, Japan
Indianapolis, Indiana
Banning, California
5 Jobs I have had
1. Server for Special Occasions in Australia at the Bowls Club.
2. Hairdressers Assistant at the Looking Glass in Australia
3. Dog Groomer
4. Carpenter for Ball State Theatre department.
5. Runner/Pee-on for Emens Auditorium in Muncie, Indiana
5 Things I want to do before I die
1. Take my whole family and rent a house on the Outer Banks for vacation
2. Go to Europe
3. Have two more children
4. Get my degree and masters degree
5. Move back to australia.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
The ups and downs of being manic-depressive
Ehg. This week has just been one long drawn out depressed zone of yuckiness. Oh well. Hopefully I will get out of my funk soon enough.
I started working at the petsmart here in town on monday, and i have to work in a couple of hours. I'm really worried that I'm going to crash and burn before the end of this semester, and school hasn't even started yet. I'm freaking out because I don't think I'm going to graduate with my art degree before Drew gets out and we move, which means I'm going to have to just fall back and get my theatre degree - or stay here with alex for another semester after drew leaves. Ugh. At that point we will have another baby too. Maybe I should just give up and stay home and make babies. ...... no offense but BORING.
I apologise for this craptaskticness.
I'm done.
I started working at the petsmart here in town on monday, and i have to work in a couple of hours. I'm really worried that I'm going to crash and burn before the end of this semester, and school hasn't even started yet. I'm freaking out because I don't think I'm going to graduate with my art degree before Drew gets out and we move, which means I'm going to have to just fall back and get my theatre degree - or stay here with alex for another semester after drew leaves. Ugh. At that point we will have another baby too. Maybe I should just give up and stay home and make babies. ...... no offense but BORING.
I apologise for this craptaskticness.
I'm done.
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